I had joy before, a good job where I could get fix wage, unexpected income as consequence of my performance, even more I could go travel around Indonesia with the finest Indonesian airlines, and not forgotten stayed in a fine hotel anytime I went work travel. That was all a really comfort zone for me.
Nonetheless, I let go all those, as unemployed, no fix income, no easy facilities provides, none materials whatsoever, but I knew I did this for good. This was not an emotional decision and I had thought bout this quite a while. There’s something valued I want to pursue. Although I realize it never easy as it looks, but I believe that miracle happens outside the comfort zone. Isn’t it? :)
So, this is my beginning, new life, new challenge, new experience. I’ll step up with my other joy.
-FY, January 2014-
I thought I refuse to having emotion today, but unfortunately it happen otherwise. Miss quality time with my mom so badly T_T
They who know what they wanna become are the lucky one. Because not everyone actually know what they wanna become. Including me couple years ago. I didn’t know what I wanna become, which cause me living a flat life. I just do what I had to do, with no passion and nothing to pursue except something materially. In which those material things I got basically will run out eventually, and in the sequence just leave me empty. I live like a robot.
Today. I suppose to realize that I ain’t such person anymore. I’m a lucky person, I know exactly what I want and what I should do to achieve what I want to become.
However, as times goes by, I found that things are not as easy as it plan or imagine. There are soooo many obstacles and challenges I have to face which almost get me hopeless. I’ve been through many failure and (perhaps) still count.
My recent failure is my 2nd attempt for Chevening. The prestigious UK goverment scholarship to fully fund master programme in UK. That was my 2nd failure in the interview stage and this time was a great disapointment for me. The source that I did hope would fund my postgraduate plan in 2013-2014, as one of the significant path I have to go through regarding my dream, is now pass me by.
After all, that won’t make me stop to keep being optimistic. There’s always another routes and there’s a reason behind my failure I believe. Moreover, as a lucky person who know what to become (coz not everyone). I should not let go my plan, should I? :D
-FY- *on the way return to Jkt*
Someday u’ll meet one who make u understand why it couldn’t work with somebody else before.
..And this isn’t actually one yet.