the invisible thoughts

Ah what the hell, I like you. *grin

Just when I’m starting to like u, u’re into somebody else. Hmphh typical..

Ps: don’t blame woman if they’re hard to get, even the careful could get hurt

The thing that often made me ‘down to earth’ is go to the high school friends wedding. Why? Probably thats because most of my high school friends are already tie the knot. Compare to those college friend’s wedding, I never really feels that. Same thing when I mets my high school friends, topics are often discuss bout mature sequence of life, such as married, having a child and so on. While with my college friends?! Goshh, we are even act and joke like a child and never feels mature or old hihi.

After all, i’m happy and enjoy to be around my friends, both high schools and colleges. I take that as a balancing in my life. :)

Ps: down to earth is refer to the feeling when i abruptly forgot about my various desire as a single and begin to think “i’m a woman, i want to build a family and raise my child(s)”

Nothing important, nothing personal, talking, laughing and arguing about nothing matters. I’m sure this kind of talks are pretty much about NOTHING. Well, we’re nothing anyway,

but I guess all this nothing has meant more to me than so many something,

and probably I’m in “that kind of silly situation which a heart keeps a beat and logic often be ignored”.

Welcome back, been a while not to feel this.

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A person I barely knows made me shared something personal in me #howcome

mom said: yaa nothing to lose aja lah.. *iya sih ma* but deep in my heart I really am hoping that miracle to happen.#insyaAllah #amin

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Night of aidil fitri day, 2011. Bandung @ rooftop of my parents house.

This is the evening of Aidil Fitri day, yet I’m not going to write about such issue instead a little personal thoughts of mine.

In previous month, Ramadzan, I met a lot of close friend of mine, friends in high school, friends in college. There’s a tradition in Ramadzan that we occasionally held an event to break our fast together, and it became a reunion session eventually.

In a reunion, as we all know it, people talks about their last news, current occupation, career, and definitely current romance, plan to get married whatsoever. am I right? :D Haha one of my friend said : “kepo sama perhatian emang beda tipis”. (Bahasa from slightly difference of ‘want to know people bussiness and concern).

Lots of my friends, besides they already have a young family, they are also planning to get married in the near future. Some are already have a real plan and some are already have a target.

For me, married issue never cross my mind, until recently I read someone’s remarks. It written that he’s going to be married in the near future..all at once my mind goes blank #speechless.

After read that, I was just think to myself. “Look Feb, everybody have a plan to get married, even your *sensor* that u thought was just a grown up boy does. While me, what am I doing? Is this wrong for a girl at this age don’t have plan for that issue?

The only thing that matter for me right now is to pursue “one of my dream” not about married, but this is also means something for me. Well, I don’t preclude the possibility if there’s the right one come into my life someday. It should depend on the person and how we’d feel about each other. After all, its probably just current thought which provoked by other people situation and opinion. I believe everything should go accordance with their own passion. I just have to believe myself that I’m doing a lot and I’m doing good”. :)

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Alhamdulillah..

Timika, 1st of March. I got an email invited me to attend an interview from British Council in regards my application in British Chevening Scholarship.

It was a huge announcement for me.. One more step Feb! Fight harder.. Pray harder.. Bismillah.

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